
Psalm 31:9-16
9 Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I am in trouble;
my eye is consumed with sorrow, and also my throat and my belly.
10 For my life is wasted with grief, and my years with sighing;
my strength fails me because of affliction, and my bones are consumed.
11 I have become a reproach to all my enemies and even to my neighbors,
a dismay to those of my acquaintance;
when they see me in the street they avoid me.
12 I am forgotten like a dead man, out of mind;
I am as useless as a broken pot.
13 For I have heard the whispering of the crowd;
fear is all around; they put their heads together against me;
they plot to take my life.
14 But as for me, I have trusted in you, O Lord.
I have said, "You are my God.
15 My times are in your hand;
rescue me from the hand of my enemies,
and from those who persecute me.
16 Make your face to shine upon your servant,
and in your loving-kindness save me."
This year, Monday Matters will focus on wisdom conveyed in the treasures of the book of Psalms. We'll look at the psalms read in church before Monday Matters comes to your screen.
Trouble
Do you ever wonder if people will remember you once you’re gone, maybe after you die, but also maybe after you move, or take a new job, or just fall out of a social circle? That wondering can be hard. And it’s hardly new. To be forgotten is just one element of human suffering indicated by the psalm heard in church yesterday (reprinted above).
That psalm, of which we read a portion, was crafted by someone who’s in trouble. Eyes filled with sorrow. Life wasted with grief. Strength failing. A reproach and dismay to the people around him. Actually, forgotten as if he was dead. Simply useless, like a broken ceramic pot, not good for anything. Happy Monday Morning to you, too. And happy Holy Week.
This psalm was read on Palm Sunday, a.k.a., the Sunday of the Passion, to kick off this most important week in the church year. By passion we mean suffering, a theme that grows in intensity this Holy Week as liturgies describe the suffering of Jesus. That suffering unfolds in many ways, including physical torture at the hands of taunting soldiers, callous religious leaders and feckless politicians. It culminates in one of the cruelest methods of capital punishment ever devised.
But as we move through this week, we find Jesus’ suffering has other dimensions. It comes not only with the opposition from those in power. It comes from those closest to him. They abandon him, betray him, deny him. In this Holy Week, meditate on the truth that the God of creation, present with us, was subjected to this kind of suffering.
Then also reflect on ways you may have felt like the psalmist. Are there times when you felt sorrow, wasted, strength gone, a reproach to people around you, or worse, have you ever felt forgotten? If indeed suffering is the promise life always keeps, we all are familiar with these experiences. They come with varying degrees of intensity and threat, but they show up in each of our lives. Sometimes, the folks who seem to gather the greatest elements of privilege are sometimes the ones who seem to suffer most. Go figure.
It can sustain us to know that the God of creation, present with us in Jesus Christ, knows that we have these experiences. More importantly, the Lord shared in them. That’s another way of saying that Jesus meets us with compassion, literally suffering along side of us. That means we are not alone in these experiences. It also means that we can show compassion to others.
Karen Armstrong, great scholar of the world’s faith traditions, says that the one value they hold in common is compassion. I love how St. Paul begins the second letter to the Corinthians. He wrote: Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and the God of all consolation, who consoles us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to console those who are in any affliction with the consolation with which we ourselves are consoled by God. For just as the sufferings of Christ are abundant for us, so also our consolation is abundant through Christ.
This week, see if perhaps you can put aside your own agenda and focus on Holy Week. Let each liturgy in which you participate focus your meditation on the passion of Christ. Marvel at the premise that the Lord of creation came among us to live a life marked by suffering. Give thanks for how that life brings us new life. And with an eye on that compassion, look for a way to show compassion to someone who comes across your path this week.
One last note: I mentioned that we only heard part of the psalm in church yesterday. If you’re looking for a focus for this Holy Week, you might read the whole psalm. Note in particular the verse in which the psalmist says: Into your hands I commend my spirit, an expression of deep trust that Jesus expressed on the cross, a message of trust we’re invited to embrace in whatever suffering comes our way. From start to finish, the psalm surrounds the vivid description of suffering with an affirmation of God’s loving presence. In God's mind, we are never forgotten. May we this week and in all the weeks to come sense that presence.
- Jay Sidebotham

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Psalm 126
1 When the Lord restored the fortunes of Zion,
then were we like those who dream.
2 Then was our mouth filled with laughter,
and our tongue with shouts of joy.
3 Then they said among the nations,
"The Lord has done great things for them."
4 The Lord has done great things for us,
and we are glad indeed.
5 Restore our fortunes, O Lord,
like the watercourses of the Negev.
6 Those who sowed with tears
will reap with songs of joy.
7 Those who go out weeping, carrying the seed,
will come again with joy, shouldering their sheaves.
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I can dream, can't I?
In the psalm we heard yesterday in church, reprinted above there’s a reference to the Negev, an area in the Holy Land between the more fertile northern region of Israel and the barren desert to the south. Maybe you know that kind of place. I suspect we all have lived in that in-between space at one time or another.
The Negev is dry for most of the year. But for a short time, there’s enough rainfall up north so that water runs down into the Negev (hence the reference to watercourses). For ten or more months, with little rainfall, the land is dry. So dry, in fact, that when the water comes from the north, it can just run over the hard-packed earth. Unless of course, a farmer has anticipated water’s arrival and broken up hard terrain, maybe even planted some seeds. In other words, growth will happen if the farmer has hope that the water will come, and if the farmer believes in that hope so much that he prepares for it.
This is a psalm about hope. Maybe even more to the point, it is about dreams, as we can see in the first verse. It’s about imagining a better time, believing so much in the future realization of that dream that actions in present time are shaped by it. Which brings me to last Friday, the anniversary of Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King’s death. 57 years ago. Hard to believe. Of course, any remembrance of Dr. King reminds us of his speech in 1963 when he spoke about a dream. He never realized the dream. On some days, I feel like it is further off than when he spoke. But that one image animated a movement that changed our nation, turning hardened hearts into fertile ground for greater justice.
When I started in ministry, an older priest told me that at least once a year, every rector should give an “I have a dream” speech. Each clergy person should let folks know what it is they hope will happen in days ahead. It’s good advice for clergy, for leadership of all kinds. And it can be a good exercise for anyone. What would be included in your “I have a dream” speech? What would you dream? What can you imagine this morning that is not yet a reality, something you really hope will come to pass?
Your church, your life, your job, your relationships may feel like the Negev, pretty unfruitful most of the time. But the psalm invites us to think of other possibilities Again, it has to do with hope, an essential Christian virtue. Jurgen Moltmann, great theologian who passed away this past year, focused his voluminous theological writings on hope, asking “Where would we stand if we did not take our stand on hope?” Jim Wallis described hope this way: “Hope is believing in spite of the evidence and watching the evidence change.” Tony Campolo spoke of hope with an eye on Holy Week. His vision was suggested in the title of his book: “It’s Friday but Sunday is coming.”
We come to end of the season of Lent, compared to a desert, to wilderness, a hard place, reflective of all the challenges we all know in life. (One priest I know regularly reminded his congregation that suffering is the promise life always keeps.) But Lent is also a season of preparation, as we get ready for the watercourses, the new life that comes with the one who said: I am the living water. In these final days of Lent, prepare the ground for the new thing God wants to do in the hardened soil of your life. What if anything are you expecting to happen in your life? Do you have an “I have a dream” speech? What seeds can you have ready? For those of us who sow with tears, hearts breaking with the brokenness of our world, may we anticipate the promises made in the psalm du jour. We may well go out weeping, carrying the seed, and we may well come again with joy, shouldering our sheaves.
- Jay Sidebotham

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Psalm 32 1 Happy are they whose transgressions are forgiven, 2 Happy are they to whom the Lord imputes no guilt, 3 While I held my tongue, my bones withered away, 4 For your hand was heavy upon me day and night; 5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you, 6 I said," I will confess my transgressions to the Lord." 7 Therefore all the faithful will make their prayers to you in time of trouble; 8 You are my hiding-place; 9 "I will instruct you and teach you in the way that you should go; 10 Do not be like horse or mule, which have no understanding; 11 Great are the tribulations of the wicked; 12 Be glad, you righteous, and rejoice in the Lord; |
We begin with confession
In 2015, the current occupant of the White House was asked whether he had ever asked God for forgiveness. He answered: “I am not sure I have. I just go on and try to do a better job from there. I don’t think so, I think if I do something wrong, I think, I just try and make it right. I don’t bring God into that picture. I don’t.”
Truth be told, I sometimes feel the same way. When it comes time for confession in the liturgy, in moments of honesty, I can say to myself that I’m a pretty good guy and I don’t have anything right now, thank you very much. It has even occurred to me that God is lucky to have me on the team. How’s that for confession?
These thoughts were triggered by the psalm we heard in church yesterday (reprinted above). It talks a lot about the need for forgiveness, specifically, the need for God to forgive us. For instance, note verses 5 and 6: “I acknowledged my sin to you, and did not conceal my guilt. I said," I will confess my transgressions to the Lord." Then you forgave me the guilt of my sin.”
That need for forgiveness is addressed in confession as we take stock, as we take our own spiritual inventory, a spiritual practice calling to each one of us. I’ve been mulling over some wisdom from Anne Lamott. She said that the earth is forgiveness school. That certainly includes our capacity to forgive those who might have done us wrong. We all know those folks. But before we get there, it’s about recognizing our own need for forgiveness, and trusting that God offers forgiveness to us with exorbitant generosity.
I’m struck with the fact that in the journey of faith, confession is often the starting point. The daily office (morning and evening prayer) begin with a confession that we have not loved God with our whole heart, mind and strength. We have not loved neighbor as ourselves. There is never a day in my life when that is not my truth. When we gather for eucharist, we do not exchange the peace or move to reception of bread and wine until we have made confession. In the church calendar, we don’t get to Easter without going through the penitential season of Lent with its persistent call to repentance, an admission that we’re going in the wrong direction, that we have missed the mark. It’s the wisdom of the Twelve Steps which begin with confession that our lives have become unmanageable and goes on to call for an admission of ways we had gone wrong.
So what is so important about confession? First of all, it’s getting to the truth about ourselves. If you heard the Parable of the Prodigal Son in church yesterday, it's that moment with the inheritance-wasting, pig-feeding screw up of a son "came to himself and said...I will get up and go to my father and say to him, "I have sinned against heaven and before you." (Luke 15:17,18)
While I have already confessed to readers that I’m fully able to gloss over the truth of my own transgressions, I have been helped in Lent by reflecting each morning on the Litany of Penitence, from the Ash Wednesday liturgy (p. 267 in the Book of Common Prayer). It’s an expanded confession and it’s got something for everyone. Have a look and see if there isn’t some way that it shines a mirror on who you are and how you are in the world. The phrase that has hit me this season is “I have not been true to the mind of Christ.” That’s undoubtedly true for me, as it invites me to explore the mystery of that holy mind.
Second, confession allows us to experience the forgiveness of the Holy One. A smart friend of mine converted to Christianity after years as committed atheism. He came to me one day and said: “I think I get the gospel: I’m not okay. You’re not okay. And that’s okay.” He had grasped the freedom that comes in believing that God’s intention is to offer us forgiveness. “If we confess our sins, God is faithful and just to forgive us our sins.” I John 1:8,9)
Third, it motivates us to offer forgiveness to those around us. If we’re honest about the ways we have fallen short, and if we have some sense that God knows us and still loves us, the door is open for us to extend forgiveness to those who may have done us wrong. We all have those people in our lives. We have all been those people in the lives of others. But that does not need to be the final word. There is indeed a way to move forward, as Desmond Tutu notably noted: There is no future without forgiveness.
So as we have a few more days in Lent, think about why confession matters in your life, and how it can be a threshold to a life marked by renewal.
-Jay Sidebotham

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Psalm 63: 1-8 1 O God, you are my God; eagerly I seek you; 2 Therefore I have gazed upon you in your holy place, 3 For your loving-kindness is better than life itself; 4 So will I bless you as long as I live 5 My soul is content, as with marrow and fatness, 6 When I remember you upon my bed, 7 For you have been my helper, 8 My soul clings to you; This year, Monday Matters will focus on wisdom conveyed in the treasures of the book of Psalms. We'll look at the psalms read in church before Monday Matters comes to your screen. |
Lifted hands
Some years ago, at the weekly liturgy critique that took place with my family around Sunday lunch, my adolescent daughter made this observation. She noted that the liturgy that day was fine, music was good, sermon was passable. But she had noticed the following. She said that when I stood behind the altar for the eucharistic prayer, with my arms lifted in what we call the orans position, it looked like I was shrugging my shoulders and saying: “I don’t know.”
I took it as a bit of a prophetic word, out of the mouths of babes. You see, the longer I’m at this spiritual journey, the more I realize how much I don’t know, how much mystery surrounds us. That realization may have been unwittingly reflected in lifted arms.
I recalled my daughter’s insight when I read the psalm heard in church yesterday (which is reprinted above). The psalmist speaks of lifted hands, and it got me thinking about what it means to lift our hands in worship.
These days, I start my days with a yoga class. Gets the old body moving. While much of the spirituality of that practice comes from sources outside the Christian tradition, I’m mindful how much scriptural emphasis there is on open hands and lifted arms, a path to the opening of the heart, a universal spiritual need.
I served in a parish a number of years ago where an elderly couple were pillars of the parish. The husband was quite a conservative, quite a successful businessman, stern and proper, and quite reserved. But in a conversation after he died, his wife told me of his daily practice of quiet time, prayer, and reflection on scripture. She spilled the beans that one morning, she walked in on his time of devotion in his study. She described him sitting in his chair, in low light, with eyes closed. His arms were lifted in a posture of absolute adoration. He seemed totally lost in wonder, love, and praise. All that took place before he went out into the world of commerce to contend with the rat race.
What does it mean, literally and figuratively, to worship God with lifted hands? For starters, it is the admission of vulnerability, a confession that there’s so much we don’t know. From that place, we lift hands in worship, opening our hearts to recognize that our lives unfold in God’s presence. Gratitude is implicit in that posture. And as we do all that, we find ourselves prepared to go out into the world to contend with our version of the rat race. It is what we do as Jesus followers.
I recently visited another church and noticed the reredos (the relief sculpture over the altar). There was a beautiful wooden carving of Jesus on the cross. Except, as I looked closely, Jesus' arms were lifted extended. His hands seemed to be free floating, not nailed to the cross. I took that to represent the way that Jesus’ arms lifted on the hardwood of the cross were intended to draw all people to himself. The nails did not have the final say. The sculpture recognized the experience of the cross, but it moved beyond that suffering, that offering to say that the lifted arms of Jesus had a universal power (regardless of efforts to erase diversity, equity and inclusion).
So that when we’re invited to lift our hands in worship, we do so first to admit our vulnerability, the recognition of what we don’t know. Then we do so in worship, to open ourselves to the power. And with arms lifted, as Jesus’ followers, we are open to neighbors, freed up to be of service.
I know that this Episcopalian, along with others (We are sometimes referred to as the frozen chosen) may be reluctant to raise hands publicly in worship. Way too exuberant. But we can take this invitation to lift hands as a call this week to open our hearts, to open ourselves to God’s grace and truth, a way of saying: “Here I am, Lord.”
Lift up your hearts. We lift them up to the Lord.
-Jay Sidebotham

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Psalm 27
1 The Lord is my light and my salvation; 2 When evildoers came upon me to eat up my flesh, 3 Though an army should encamp against me, 4 And though war should rise up against me, 5 One thing have I asked of the Lord; 6 To behold the fair beauty of the Lord 7 For in the day of trouble he shall keep me safe 8 Even now he lifts up my head 9 Therefore I will offer in his dwelling an oblation 10 Hearken to my voice, O Lord, when I call; 11 You speak in my heart and say, "Seek my face." 12 Hide not your face from me, 13 You have been my helper; 14 Though my father and my mother forsake me, 15 Show me your way, O Lord; 16 Deliver me not into the hand of my adversaries, 17 What if I had not believed that I should see 18 O tarry and await the Lord's pleasure; This year, Monday Matters will focus on wisdom conveyed in the treasures of the book of Psalms. We'll look at the psalms read in church before Monday Matters comes to your screen. |
Who's searching for whom?
The psalm we heard in church yesterday (reprinted above) includes this verse: “You speak in my heart and say seek my face. Thy face, Lord, will I seek.” In many ways, that search sums up the spiritual journey. But I am mindful that scripture speaks about the search in various ways, some of which may seem contradictory. Apparently, we are not the only ones doing the seeking.
According to scripture, God is searching. The first pages of the Bible have God walking in the garden, looking for Adam and Eve, who were hiding because they are buck naked. The Lord asks: Where are you? And that's just the beginning. Throughout the Hebrew Scriptures, we read that God holds out hands all day long to a rebellious people (Isaiah 65:2)
In his book, God in Search of Man, Abraham Joseph Heschel writes: “The mysterious paradox of Biblical faith: God is pursuing man. It is as if God were unwilling to be alone, and He had chosen man to serve Him. Our seeking Him is not only man’s, but also His concern, and must not be considered an exclusively human affair. His will is involved in all our yearnings. All of human history is described in the phrase: God in search of man.”
A seminary professor described our relationship with God as synergy, literally working together. Paul captured this in his loving letter to the Philippians: “Work out your salvation with fear and trembling, because it is God who is at work in you.” Karl Barth captured the synergy, noting the link between God’s grace and our response. He wrote:
“Grace and gratitude belong together like heaven and earth. Grace evokes gratitude like the voice an echo. Gratitude follows grace like thunder lightning…We are speaking of the grace of the God who is God for man, and of the gratitude of man as his response to this grace…Radically and basically all sin is simply ingratitude—man’s refusal of the one but necessary thing which is proper to and is required of him with whom God has graciously entered into covenant. As far as man is concerned, there can be no question of anything but gratitude; but gratitude is the complement which man must necessarily fulfill.”
In other words, we have a part to play in this. Can we embrace the image of God which Jesus shared in the parable of the lost sheep? In that story, the Holy One is like unto a shepherd leaving 99 sheep in the fold, looking for one lost sheep, a quite irrational thing to do? And where does that leave us? How do we search for God?
A favorite canticle (Canticle 10, The Second Song of Isaiah) begins with the word: Seek the Lord while he may be found. Call upon him while he is near. Paul in the letter to the Romans quotes from the Hebrew Scriptures: The word is very near you. And when Paul preaches to Athenians, in a pagan setting surrounded by statues to all kinds of gods, he notes God’s presence there. He says to that secular crowd: In God we live and move and have our being.
Yet so many times in the psalms, we read the question addressed to the Holy One: Where have you gone? Are you asleep?
Have you ever posed those questions? Maybe an answer comes as we realize we don’t have to search for a God who is far off. We simply have to recognize holy presence all around us. Nicolas Malebranche, 16th century priest and philosopher said it this way: “Attentiveness is the prayer of the soul.” Again, from Abraham Heschel: “God is less rare than we think; when we long for Him, His distance crumbles away”
The question for us then becomes: How are we being attentive, mindful of God’s presence? Are we too distracted to notice? Are our schedules too full to sense God’s presence? Do we fear we’ve messed up too badly? And is gratitude part of our spiritual practice?
One of my spiritual guides, the Rev. Dr. Dwight Zscheile says that our mission in the world as disciples of Jesus is to see what God is already up to in the neighborhood. That’s a profound theological point, i.e., that God is active and present in all things. We are not the ones who import God’s presence, despite what some missionaries and colonialists might say. All we need? Eyes opened to see God in all things. Gratitude. And in this Lenten season, we might want to explore obstacles to our search. As one preacher put it: If God seems far away, you might want to ask: “Who moved?”
So on this Monday morning, give thanks for a God who seeks us out, like that good shepherd. Amazing grace. And imagine how you might seek God with open heart, mind and strength, growing into greater attentiveness, in so doing enjoying the grace and love at the heart of all things.
-Jay Sidebotham

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Psalm 91:1-2, 9-16 1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High, 2 He shall say to the Lord, "You are my refuge and my stronghold, 9 Because you have made the Lord your refuge, 10 There shall no evil happen to you, 11 For he shall give his angels charge over you, 12 They shall bear you in their hands, 13 You shall tread upon the lion and adder; 14 Because he is bound to me in love, 15 He shall call upon me, and I will answer him; 16 With long life will I satisfy him, This year, Monday Matters will focus on wisdom conveyed in the treasures of the book of Psalms. We'll look at the psalms read in church before Monday Matters comes to your screen. |
Dwelling
I was in New York for Ash Wednesday. That morning, I walked by an Episcopal church where they were imposing ashes in front of the church, clergy standing on the sidewalk. I stopped to receive them and carried on with my trek downtown. It was rush hour so streets were packed. At one intersection, I dashed to cross the street before the light changed. A young buck was doing the same in another direction. He almost knocked me over. Didn’t even say sorry. My initial reaction was to let an expletive fly.
Then I remembered ashes on my forehead and thought that any expression of my enraged response would reveal my well-hidden hypocrisy. So I kept quiet and went on my way.
But I got to thinking, maybe I should have an ashen sign of the cross on my forehead all the time, a constant reminder of who I am trying to follow, what he would call me to do, how I’m meant to relate to those around me, and how I don’t always get it right. Maybe those perpetual ashes would serve as a course correction when road rage (or other kinds of rage) surfaced.
I thought about the rite of baptism, during which the candidate for baptism receives the sign of the cross in oil on the forehead. The oil is not visible, but it is there all the time. We are sealed as Christ’s own forever. So when we’re crossing intersections or navigating heavy traffic or waiting on long lines or dealing with difficult relatives or doing business or watching the news, we are called to recall that the sign of the cross is there, shaping the way we respond amid the vicissitudes of life.
I believe that this all relates to the psalm we heard yesterday in church (reprinted in this email.) Notice in the psalm how it speaks about where we dwell. We abide under the shadow of the almighty. God becomes our refuge and stronghold. We make the Most High our habitation. It’s so much more than simply embracing theological precepts or ethical code. It’s about where we live. About how we live.
How do we come to see that all of our lives unfold in God’s presence, that we make the Holy One our habitation? One of my spiritual guides, the Rev. Dr. Dwight Zscheile, speaks about a method of bible study called Dwelling in the Word. It’s a process of letting scripture become part of us, as the word “dwell” or “abide,’ used often in Scripture and hymnody, means to live or remain somewhere or with someone for a time. The practice of Dwelling in the Word invites communities to live together with a text for a period so that the reflections, wonderings, and promptings of God’s Word form and shape faith and living. (If you want to know more about this process, google will help.)
Lent is a season when we’re invited to focus on spiritual practices, a growth opportunity for many Episcopalians. Those practices have to do with the way we spend our time, the way we live our lives, where we dwell. Practices might be including a rhythm of prayer in a daily calendar or putting a time of prayer on your to-do list, keeping a prayer list of concerns close to your heart, making a list of ten things for which you are grateful each day, reading spiritual books or signing up for a daily devotional, committing to a ministry of service, looking for daily opportunities to offer encouragement and affirmation.
And as much as we might need to adopt practices, we may need a change of heart. During Lent, we'll hear several times this verse from Psalm 51: Create in me a clean heart and renew a right spirit within me. Perhaps a prayer for a clean heart, a right spirit can be our constant Lenten appeal to God.
If we’re feeling like dwelling is too hard or mysterious or confusing, remember that grace always precedes. John’s gospel kicks off by reminding us that Jesus was the word made flesh who dwelt among us. Literally pitched a tent in our midst. Our tradition tells us that there is Christ in each person. As we remember that the Holy One dwells in us, we can find strength and guidance to make the Holy One our habitation.
So ask yourself this Lent: Where are you dwelling? Are you dwelling on negativity? Do you live in your head where resentments have taken up residence? Or can you take some step in these coming days to make the Holy One your habitation?
-Jay Sidebotham

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Psalm 99 1 The Lord is King; let the people tremble; 2 The Lord is great in Zion; 3 Let them confess his Name, which is great and awesome; 4 "O mighty King, lover of justice, you have established equity; 5 Proclaim the greatness of the Lord our God and fall down before his footstool; 6 Moses and Aaron among his priests, and Samuel among those who call upon his Name, 7 He spoke to them out of the pillar of cloud; 8 O Lord our God, you answered them indeed; 9 Proclaim the greatness of the Lord our God and worship him upon his holy hill; This year, Monday Matters will focus on wisdom conveyed in the treasures of the book of Psalms. We'll look at the psalms read in church before Monday Matters comes to your screen. |
Earth-shaking news
On the whole, I do not find Christians, outside of the catacombs, sufficiently sensible of conditions. Does anyone have the foggiest idea what sort of power we so blithely invoke? Or, as I suspect, does no one believe a word of it? The churches are children playing on the floor with their chemistry sets, mixing up a batch of TNT to kill a Sunday morning. It is madness to wear ladies’ straw hats and velvet hats to church; we should all be wearing crash helmets. Ushers should issue life preservers and signal flares; they should lash us to our pews. For the sleeping god may wake someday and take offense, or the waking god may draw us out to where we can never return.
-Annie Dillard
Yesterday in church, the Last Sunday after the Epiphany, we heard the story of the Transfiguration. It’s an important story, heard a couple of times throughout the year. It’s an other-worldly story about mountaintop revelation. Let your imagination picture Stephen Spielberg special effects. It describes the transcendence of the Holy One made present on earth. As such, it provides a fitting conclusion to the season of Epiphany, a season of divine manifestations.
The experience caused the few disciples who joined Jesus in that thin place to be terrified. I suspect rightly so. That is in keeping with other encounters in the scripture where people experience some kind of epiphany and need to be told: Fear not. The theme is echoed in the psalm you may have heard in church yesterday, Psalm 99 (reprinted above). That psalm echoes the biblical theme that when God’s presence is revealed, it can make the earth shake.
As I reflect on years in parish ministry, one of the things I regret, one of the things in which I participated, was in domesticating the gospel. Making it safe. Making it comfortable. Even making it boring. I did that even though my gifted sister rendered in calligraphy, as a gift at my ordination, the quote from Annie Dillard that began this morning’s email.
In our research with RenewalWorks, we found that about 25% of Episcopalians can be described as complacent, not expecting or wanting any transformation to happen to them as a result of their church engagement. It may be why the number of Nones and Dones increases. (Nones are those with no religious affiliation. Dones are those who have given up on theirs.) When it comes to church these days, people may rightly ask: “Why bother?” It seems to me that there is a need to recover a sense of amazement and the possibility of transformation, maybe even transfiguration. It seems to me that too often we envision the universe as centered around ourselves. We need to recover a sense of worship and the true meaning of the word "awesome."
I think that our liturgies are meant to help us in that recovery process. As a forgetful people, we need to do it week after week, maybe daily, maybe many times in a day. That’s why grace at meals matters, as we recall that we are sustained because of all good gifts around us.
The good news is that as we recognize that our lives unfold in the presence of a higher power, we come to know that the character of that power is love. The season of Epiphany began with Jesus’ baptism, as a voice from heaven speaks of his belovedness. The season ends on the mountaintop, with a voice from heaven speaking again of Jesus’ belovedness.
In his beautiful book, Life of the Beloved, Henri Nouwen says that we can hear that voice speaking to each one of us as well. The God of creation regards us with that beloved perspective. That seems to me to be earth-shaking news. It calls for our response of thanksgiving, praise and worship. It calls for a sense of awe, and a holy fear. To have that kind of response, it seems to me, reflects the way we were designed. It’s the way we were meant to be. On that note, let me close with this insight, really a prayer from Richard Rohr:
I do not want to belong to a religion that cannot kneel. I do not want to live in a world where there is no one to adore. It is a lonely and labored world if I am its only center.
-Jay Sidebotham

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Psalm 37:1-12, 41-42 1 Do not fret yourself because of evildoers; 2 For they shall soon wither like the grass, 3 Put your trust in the Lord and do good; 4 Take delight in the Lord, 5 Commit your way to the Lord and put your trust in him, 6 He will make your righteousness as clear as the light 7 Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him. 8 Do not fret yourself over the one who prospers, 9 Refrain from anger, leave rage alone; 10 For evildoers shall be cut off, 11 In a little while the wicked shall be no more; 12 But the lowly shall possess the land; 41 But the deliverance of the righteous comes from the Lord; 42 The Lord will help them and rescue them; This year, Monday Matters will focus on wisdom conveyed in the treasures of the book of Psalms. We'll look at the psalms read in church before Monday Matters comes to your screen. |
Outrageous.
If you're not outraged, you're not paying attention. Or so the saying goes. In a season in which our country, our churches, even family gatherings are marked by division, a common experience binds us together. Outrage.
It’s all the rage, reaching from our most powerful politicians to daily interactions at a traffic stop. I’m wrestling with my own delight in righteous indignation, feeling somewhat powerless over my reactions when I read the news or hear what other folks have to say or see offending bumper stickers. Are others having the same struggle?
I find myself wondering what kind of outrage the author of Psalm 37 was feeling. We heard a portion of that psalm yesterday in church (reprinted above). As preachers often preach to themselves, I find myself thinking about what made the psalmist warn against fretting over evildoers. What led him to say: Leave rage alone. It leads only to evil?
As violence begets violence, the human condition is such that outrage often begets outrage. How do we break that cycle? It’s what Dr. Martin Luther King learned from Mahatma Gandhi about the power of non-violence. Neither of them retreated from the pursuit of justice. But when faced with outrageous acts of violence, they did not respond in kind. They found another way.
A favorite read is The Book of Joy, which describes a week long visit between Desmond Tutu and the Dalai Lama. Both men knew the cruelty of political systems. They each had plenty of reason for outrage. But that did not stop them from living life with irrepressible joy. John Lewis, who had his skull bashed in during the Civil Rights Movement, spent his whole life pursuing those rights. But those efforts never seemed hateful. He said: “Never give up. Never give in. Never get hostile. Hate is too big a burden to bear.” Dietrich Bonhoeffer, well within his rights to be outraged, said that discipleship is joy. He said: “The joy of God has gone through the poverty of the manger and the agony of the cross. That is why it is invincible and irrefutable.” As Jesus said to his disciples in an extensive teaching on the night before his torture and execution: “I have said these things to you so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.”(John 15.11)
No doubt about it. Righteous outrage, righteous indignation is delicious. It can be addictive. But as the psalmist notes, we are called in the mystery of our faith to leave rage alone. To be still and trust God. To do good. To commit our way to God, who promises to give the desires of our hearts.
That does not mean that we approach injustices of our world with indifference or complacency. There is good work to be done, good trouble to get into. The folks I’ve cited this morning showed us how to respond for the good of neighbors. They showed us how to make a difference. But they never gave up on love in their hearts. That is a particular challenge for the Christian community, for those who seek to be Jesus followers. Rowan Williams said it this way: “The one thing you know for certain about your tiresome, annoying, disobedient, disedifying fellow Christians is that God has welcomed them. That becomes your challenge.”
I’m pretty certain that if I’d been asked to write Psalm 37, it would have come out differently. I probably would have given sanction to lots of outrage, as long as it aligned with my opinions. Thanks be to God, I never got that request. Instead, I join anyone who reads this psalm in the challenge of breaking the cycle of outrage, which may mean breaking the cycle of violence. Jesus helps us do that. Jesus showed us the way to do that. It is the way of love. “Thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.” (Romans 7)
So if you’re feeling outrage this week (and there’s all kinds of reasons to feel that way), hear, read, learn, and inwardly digest Psalm 37. See what it has to say to you.
-Jay Sidebotham

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Psalm 1 1 Happy are they who have not walked in the counsel of the wicked, 2 Their delight is in the law of the Lord, 3 They are like trees planted by streams of water, bearing fruit in due season, 4 It is not so with the wicked; they are like chaff which the wind blows away. 5 Therefore the wicked shall not stand upright when judgment comes, 6 For the Lord knows the way of the righteous, This year, Monday Matters will focus on wisdom conveyed in the treasures of the book of Psalms. We'll look at the psalms read in church before Monday Matters comes to your screen. |
Verbs
What are the verbs that characterize your spiritual life? I find that if I want to be reminded of what a service is all about, whether it’s a baptism or eucharist, a wedding or a funeral, I can look at the verbs in the liturgy, especially the verbs in the prayers. With that in mind, this Monday morning I’d like to reflect on the first verse of the first psalm, reprinted above. It’s a psalm, heard in church yesterday, that provides an introduction, maybe an overture, to the 149 psalms that follow, which makes it worth our attention.
Psalm 1 presents two ways of living. I’m particularly interested in the progression described in the verbs of that first verse. It speaks of those who walk, who linger, who sit. It goes from movement to stasis. I wonder if that’s how our lives unfold. We begin by walking in an environment that may or may not bring health. Pretty soon we’re slowing down and loitering. Kind of hanging around. Finally, we plunk our selves down and sit in the mess we’ve chosen. Maybe that’s what people mean when they describe themselves as being stuck.
Because I’ve come to believe that spiritual growth is the priority in the life of faith, I’m interested in the way this growth happens, how it progresses. I often ask people to think about when they experienced spiritual growth and what caused that to happen. I follow up and ask if they’ve experienced a time when they were spiritually stuck or stalled. What made that happen?
When people describe being stalled in the spiritual life, the most common reason I hear is that they experienced crisis or challenge. (Interestingly enough, that’s also the thing that seems to help people grow.) Others say that the busy pace of contemporary life has kept them from growing spiritually. Way too many people have bad experiences with the church. Imagine! People say things like: “The church is just full of hypocrites,” to which I can only reply “Guilty as charged.”
But let's get back to Psalm 1. It suggests that spiritual inertia has something to do with the company we keep/the environment in which we place ourselves. That can be the people we hang out with. It can be the entertainment (movies, music, sports) to which we devote time. A recent Atlantic article on the epidemic of loneliness in our culture noted that young people spend more than 30% of their waking life on screens, increasingly isolated and digesting input that may or may not be spiritually nourishing.
Think on this Monday morning about how you are being shaped by the environment in which you place yourself. What do your calendar and your checkbook/credit card statement indicate about what you value? Annie Dillard noted that the way we spend our days is of course the way we live our lives. Each day offers opportunity to think about these questions: With whom are we walking? Where have we chosen to linger? Where have we popped a squat and settled in? Do those choices, do those experiences help us grow in love of God and neighbor, or do they get in the way? Are we planted by a living stream?
That’s where the life of the church comes in, the church with all its shortcomings. I don’t simply mean the hour or so we might give to worship each week, though regular worship is key to keeping us on track. I mean as well the spiritual practices we make part of our life, maybe how we wake each day and ask God to bless the day and guide us in it, mindful that our lives unfold in God’s presence. I mean as well service. I mean as well work for justice and peace.
Each day presents us with a choice. I love the Prayer for the Day (From the Service for Healing in the Book of Common Prayer). Like the first verse of Psalm 1, note the importance of the verbs. Here’s the prayer, which I invite you to say this morning, and maybe in mornings to come:
This is another day, O Lord. I know not what it will bring forth, but make me ready, Lord, for whatever it may be. If I am to stand up, help me to stand bravely. If I am to sit still, help me to sit quietly. If I am to lie low, help me to do it patiently. And if I am to do nothing, let me do it gallantly. Make these words more than words, and give me the Spirit of Jesus. Amen.
-Jay Sidebotham
